America is drowning into its own disgusting and regressive clichés. And what does that government do? Sending the army against their own citizens? Is it USA in 2014 or Germany in 1934? And all of this to protect the fascist tradition of police forces and justice? And then what, are they going to bomb their own cities to restore democracy? I don’t understand how some people can still believe Obama is worth better than Putin… How can people still trust and serve such a regime?
I want to dissapear and to be left alone in my own shit. I don’t deserve anything good. I’m feeling really low and I’m getting very depressed again, and I’m tired of this. This is despairing and I can’t see a way out of it.
I’m hitting a low again and I felt that coming since a few days. I still have no idea what to do with this, what to do with myself, and there’s nothing I can see who could possibly make this change. I have no idea what to do, I’m stuck with this since years and years and a part of me hates me so much for being unable to do something to get better… but this other part of me just doesn’t know what to do. I don’t know which one is making feel the more down and desperate. So I’ll just brush everything off and stay empty and hurt, as always, going nowhere and giving up on this. I am very tired of this. I’ll be away for the weekend, so goodnight to who may read that.